Stillness. That's what I took my break to have. Did my plan work completely? Not completely, but I did have time to ponder a few things.
Being a dreamer and an adventurer at heart, it's hard for me to be still and stop dreaming about the future. To just be and enjoy the moment. Without snapping a picture or imagining the moment any other way. Without checking social media or broadcasting my life to the world. I'm a teenager, but really, I'm still a kid. I won't be able to say that for very much longer. These days are precious, and when I look back, I want to be proud of the way I spent them. I don't want to be regretful because I put too much value on social media or longed so fiercely for the future that I didn't realize the joy of being young.
A few days ago, a facebook group that I'm in asked us where we saw ourselves in ten years. This was my response:
"In ten years, I (like many of you) would positively love to be the momma to a crowd of little children and a wife to an amazing and godly husband. While I would love to keep pursuing photography, family will be first priority and hopefully I'll do weddings and portraits on the side. I want to capture the priceless looks on my kids' faces and live life fully with them. I want to be their mother and teacher. I want to teach them not only how to read and write, but also how to really live life. Maybe some days will consist of reading children's books, playing in the garden, and building a massive fort in our tiny living room-- but if I teach them about the science in the vegetables and how to love each other well, isn't that enough? I want them to be creative and have imaginations (our TV will be seldom put to use) and if their art ends up everywhere, even as crayon marks on the walls, that's peachy keen with me. We probably won't be wealthy (I'd hate that) and we'll probably be a rather odd bunch. But we'll be a happy, colorful bunch. Our house will be filled with joy- the joy of the Lord, and we'll love each other to the moon and back. These are, of course, my plans... the Lord may have completely different ones, but any way he plans it, that's the way I want it."
See, when I dream, sometimes I dream about these things. Sometimes I dream about the man I'll marry. I wonder if I know him already. He could be anyone. I over think things, and I get impatient. There isn't anything wrong with dreaming, but when I get so caught up in worrying about things that won't matter for years, I just get fitful and realize that
I should be enjoying what the Lord has given me today. "This is the day that the Lord has made. I will
rejoice and be
glad it it!" I want to stop worrying about tomorrow and just let Him guide my life.
I want to live my life today in a way that will make me proud tomorrow.
I want to finish with no regrets or wasted hours.
I want to inspire others to do the same.
And I want to be sincere in all that I do.
It's good to be back, y'all. You're the best!
xx. Lindsey
