We all love to dream. I know I do.
I dream and plan for my future. I lie awake in bed, staring out the window, under the full moon, thinking. just thinking. And dreaming about my future.
Then I make a little plan.
Let's see... Well, first I'll go to college and study art, I think. And a little bit later, I'll meet some amazing man. Then I think about that man, who he may be, what he may be like. I want to marry someone like this...I think to myself, as my mind begins to wander. After I meet him, we'll date each other, grow in love, and someday get married. It seems simple enough. And then I will travel the world with Celia and Adelle, and of course they'll get married too, so the six of us can take off for the world together.
As I get carried away, I think of the cute little house we'll live in, being poor, newlyweds, but having just enough to keep us afloat. And loving each other so much that we won't even notice. I think of having a family-- a big one, and a house full of lively children, who I'll teach at home. I ponder the memories we'll make, the laughter that will fill our home, and everything in between.
I fall asleep, and tuck away my plan for a little while.
But today I was thinking. Maybe God has different plans.
What if, before I even went to college, He called me to missions?
What if He called me to singleness, to serve His kingdom somewhere, and I never married?
And what if I never had my own family?
What if I didn't get to go to London, Paris, and Venice, but in stead was called to serve in Africa?
What if I wasn't given the cute little house I want, but rather a missionary's home or a simple home in a third world country?
What if I didn't have the memories and laughter of a family, but in stead had the memories and laughter of the children of His kingdom?
I don't know what the Lord has for me. I don't know if any of these things are in store for my life-- in either list. And I began to wonder, would I follow the Lord, and do what He called me to, even if it meant that I didn't get to live the life I've dreamed of? All I know is that God has an amazing plan, and that however it may work out, I need to follow Him in it. Because I don't write my story; He does.
In other news, I have two finds for the day:
A question-a-day 5-year journal-- I'm in love!
And a yellow and cream striped sweater... you know me and my sweater faddish. ;)
(sorry, all these pictures are blurry and bad... they looked better on the review screen than on the computer.)
Love, hugs, & macaroons to ya,
Lindsey Lou
That's awesome(:
ReplyDeleteLovely :-) Awesome shots!
ReplyDeletei'm jealous of your notebook and sweater. where did you get them? because i'm totally copying you.
ReplyDeletealso, you're not alone. i think about my hubby all the time... wherever he is, whoever he is.. :))
-jocee <3
Love this post & i totally agree. So often i find myself planning my future..but really, what God has in store for me, even if its not what i want, is so much better, even if i cant see it right now.
ReplyDeleteThis one certain quote always makes me smile, "Want to make God laugh? Tell Him YOUR plans". God has something bigger and better in store for us than we could ever imagine. We don't know what's down the road, that's the joy of it, we have to put our faith in God and do what is HIS will for us, not our own.
ReplyDeleteAmazing post, Lou, I just love it :))
Wow, SO good!! So true too. I wish I could make my words sound like that!! :)
ReplyDeleteThis was absolutely gorgeous, Dear. You are so so gifted! Seriously. I know what you mean...I try to picture my future....but at moments like that I have to remind myself that..well, like what you said! :)) I am utterly thankful to have a friend like you in my life. I am so happy I got to see you today at class! We haven't seen each other in a while. Go the snorkeler dandelions.
ReplyDeleteYou are a great writer! That post really made me think, and you are exactly right. It would be hard give what you wanted away, but if it's His plan, then it's meant to be.
ReplyDeleteThank you for writing that. :)
1. You are echoing my heart! It's easy to forget that the promise God gives in Jeremiah 29:11 is one that He gives to a people doomed to exile for 70 years. His plan prevails. It's rather amazing.
ReplyDelete2. It's not blurry. It's depth of field. That's what you gotta tell yourself when it doesn't turn out just like you want. ;)