We all love to dream. I know I do.
I dream and plan for my future. I lie awake in bed, staring out the window, under the full moon, thinking. just thinking. And dreaming about my future.
Then I make a little plan.
Let's see... Well, first I'll go to college and study art, I think. And a little bit later, I'll meet some amazing man. Then I think about that man, who he may be, what he may be like. I want to marry someone like this...I think to myself, as my mind begins to wander. After I meet him, we'll date each other, grow in love, and someday get married. It seems simple enough. And then I will travel the world with Celia and Adelle, and of course they'll get married too, so the six of us can take off for the world together.
As I get carried away, I think of the cute little house we'll live in, being poor, newlyweds, but having just enough to keep us afloat. And loving each other so much that we won't even notice. I think of having a family-- a big one, and a house full of lively children, who I'll teach at home. I ponder the memories we'll make, the laughter that will fill our home, and everything in between.
I fall asleep, and tuck away my plan for a little while.
But today I was thinking. Maybe God has different plans.
What if, before I even went to college, He called me to missions?
What if He called me to singleness, to serve His kingdom somewhere, and I never married?
And what if I never had my own family?
What if I didn't get to go to London, Paris, and Venice, but in stead was called to serve in Africa?
What if I wasn't given the cute little house I want, but rather a missionary's home or a simple home in a third world country?
What if I didn't have the memories and laughter of a family, but in stead had the memories and laughter of the children of His kingdom?
I don't know what the Lord has for me. I don't know if any of these things are in store for my life-- in either list. And I began to wonder, would I follow the Lord, and do what He called me to, even if it meant that I didn't get to live the life I've dreamed of? All I know is that God has an amazing plan, and that however it may work out, I need to follow Him in it. Because I don't write my story; He does.
In other news, I have two finds for the day:
A question-a-day 5-year journal-- I'm in love!
And a yellow and cream striped sweater... you know me and my sweater faddish. ;)
(sorry, all these pictures are blurry and bad... they looked better on the review screen than on the computer.)
Love, hugs, & macaroons to ya,